the skin i live in

crawls beneath the epidermis you can see.
creatures burrow and feed on me.
inhaling my life force, leave me standing.
i might look like you. but inside, i am dying.

the skin i live in.

is not mine, doesn’t let me shine.
stringent ego holds me back, self critical, analysis militant.
i just want to break free.
i want to be me.
inhaling cocoa butter keeps the pretence alive.

the skin i live in.

i look in the mirror, trace my face.
that’s not who i thought you were.
a reflection i don’t know mimes back, that’s not who i thought you were.
younger perhaps, lines under eyes.

the skin i live in.

green veins network my chest.
spaghetti junction against my oesophagus.
i didn’t say you needed me.
blood threads into spotted cavities.
waves of sensations, crushes the butterflies.

the skin i live in.

goosepimples. hand-stitched palms tear away my fate.
beauty separates from beast.
all my imperfections neat and i stand to attention in defeat.
white noise fills me, transmission climbs.

the skin i live in.

you embrace more than which I can feed.
you think i’m guilty but there is no such thing as deceit.
purple veins run riot on wrists.
translucent cling film.
soft, hazy, aureole emanates the sublime.

the skin i live in.

draw triangles from thighs to calves, cross legged, dot to dot.
kill me with kindness.
prowling with outlaws belonging to God.
you hold me as i drown in the tears i cry.

the skin i live in.

ragged with razor blades, piercings.
clean cut, clinical incisions.
dissecting thought patterned decisions.
stream in paradise coursing to collision.
illusion shatters, reality beckons knowledge divine.

the skin i live in.

and just like that,
a whirlwind freezes motion in time,
heart beat stops.
i can’t breathe.
i drop.
and it doesn’t matter anymore to anyone.

the skin i live in

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